Sunday, February 20, 2011

HUMILITY

Well, my schedule is a little different AGAIN… Instead of going to Symphony on Mondays, we now go on Thursdays. And Excelsior is still not confirmed, but if it does work out, I will go there on Tuesdays. So now Monday has turned in to a sort of office day, where I can help work on proposals and other things for YFC in general.

This Monday in particular was an interesting one… As soon as I arrived at the office, I was leaving for the Cape Theological Seminary. One of our projects is to come in on Tuesdays and help them with admin type things, so they asked us to make a presentation for their Chapel on Monday. Little did I know what was to come… Denzel, one of the YFC staff had just said I would share a testimony of what it’s like in the projects, and that I might talk about some upcoming events. No big deal, I can handle that. But before I knew it, I had a guitar strapped on me, and I was leading worship. Not my guitar, but I just happened to open my big mouth and say that I would lead worship “if I had my guitar with me.” BIG mistake. God just loves to surprise me, I think. He wants to destroy my expectations and my ideas. I didn’t think I would be leading worship, boy was I wrong!

The presentation ended up being a great thing. Just to connect with the students and faculty there and potentially use them in the projects. I was more blessed by the fact that I met a woman from South Carolina and a man from Montgomery, AL. I didn’t realize how much I missed home until I heard his southern twang. What a beautiful thing! Never thought I would say that. We talked about football, grits, Starbucks and all was well with the world.

Since you pretty much know my weekly schedule now, there’s no point in walking you through each and every day. I will just give you some of the highlights and quotable quotes. First, SOS teens was particularly powerful this week. On Wednesday, we talked about friendship and how you are as a friend. We specifically talked about wearing “masks.” What mask do you wear to hide how you really feel sometimes? The youth truthfully responded. We got REAL, so to speak. This was a breakthrough for them! Usually it is a struggle to get them to go deeper, but for whatever reason, they felt completely comfortable going there. I definitely believe God is opening hearts, especially when we pray for that.

Another very cool moment this week was at Symphony High School on Thursday. Since our schedule was moved from Monday to Thursday, there is a sweet girl who no longer has class with us. She’s very disappointed about this, so she decided to come sit with us during her interval, which is a time for them to break, chill or eat lunch. At one point during this time, she turned to us and asked pretty abruptly, “What are you doing here? I mean, why would you come and teach a bunch of kids that really don’t care about anything you have to say?” I sat in shock for a few seconds, but immediately responded, “Well, frankly, I know that most of the kids here don’t care a lick about what I say, but maybe just maybe, if there was one student that needed to hear something, then all of this would be worth it.” She smiled, nodded and said, “Yeah, but I bet that’s hard.” I replied, “Yep, but we care, so that’s why we’re here.”

It was a beautiful moment, where God just flung wide open a door of opportunity to preach love into this girl’s life. It is hard to work in the schools and not be as open about God, especially when you have all different religions represented. Multiple Muslim girls were wearing their headdresses. We have to be careful with our words, but obviously God makes a way for us to get through to these young people despite the caution. I’m excited for more opportunities to come!

To end out a fantastically busy week, I got a call on Thursday to let me know I was leading worship at a local church called Kaleidoscope. I had visited two weeks earlier and before I knew it, I was invited to lead worship! Yikes! I can thank Uncle Rolf for that one. He was giving the sermon this morning and told the pastor of the church (Pastor Glen) he would take care of everything, including worship (aka, calling me). I was very worried all this weekend, and into this morning, but it never fails that God just takes care of everything. My worries and doubts disappear with the first chord, as I start leading worship, and after that it’s just Him. Despite me, God moves and uses my worship; His worship. Rolf actually asked me to share one of my songs more lovingly dubbed, “The Car Song,” for the offertory song. It’s a more embarrassing song that I wrote after I had a bad day and a bad car experience, but it was amazing how God used that song to speak to some of the congregation members. At the end of the service, Pastor Glen asked me to come back up and do one more song. I chose to do “All Who Are Thirsty,” which was co-written by Glen Robertson, the pastor of the church. I thought it might be an interesting experience to play his own song for him. He was very excited to hear that it was such a popular song in the states. I’m sure it is an amazing thing to see your music blessing people a world away!

Wow, what a week! Sorry for the lengthiness of this entry… For those of you who made it this far, you are my true friends. I have really been missing home this week. There was a Chrysalis Boy’s Flight this weekend, and I’m not there to see the life change, but I definitely know it’s going on! I’ve been praying for all of you there at Blue Lake right now! Fly with Christ!

Prayer request: My family… just pray hard for my family, specifically my sister’s health and my brother’s strength and perseverance. Also pray for more opportunities with students in the classroom!

-Kristen

Saturday, February 12, 2011

The Schedule.

My little Bevin at the farm :)

Some more sweet girls at the farm
Moyo with the Pinelands girls!

We officially started all our projects last week, but this week everything changed. With the blessing of so many volunteers, it was impossible to let us choose where we wanted to be. So instead we were placed and replaced in all the projects. So I actually have a whole new schedule!

Monday: Symphony High School – teaching life skills class; SOS teens in the evening for bible study

Tuesday: Devotion & cleaning day; the farm teens in the afternoon

Wednesday: Accordian Primary – teaching life skills class; SOS teens in the evening for a more practical study

Thursday: To be confirmed – Excelsior High School – teaching life skills class; the farm teens in the afternoon

Friday: Staff meeting/planning/catch up in the office day!

A pretty packed schedule, but I was very excited to see that I was working with all teen groups. I mean don’t get me wrong, I love my farm babies and the kids at SOS, but I definitely know I’m more gifted to work with a teenage group.

This week we were unable to go into Accordian Primary, because they had a standardized test, and Excelsior was unable to confirm, so we began the week in Symphony! I actually LOVE teaching at the high school! It is draining, because we constantly have to fight for their attention, but I had no idea I would enjoy it so much. My mom has always wanted me to be a teacher, so I guess she can thank YFC for throwing me head first into the class room!

The teens at SOS are so dear to me, even after this short week. They are so hungry for God. It is amazing to see them step up and lead discussion, as well as make sure everyone is quiet and attentive. They all have their own wonderful personalities and senses of humor. It never fails that we are rolling in laughter most of the time that we are together. Even with their difficult backgrounds and testimonies, they are faithful and hungry for more. They inspire me!

Because of all the extra time in the office, Jorine (a volunteer from Holland) and I were able to clean out the closet at the office. You might think that isn’t a big deal, but if you could have seen the closet, you would understand. We were pulling out papers and manuals and videos from the 80s! It was hot and messy work, but we had a lot of fun doing it. And in the end, you can now actually step inside the closet and touch the back wall, which was unheard of just a week ago. If you really want to bond with someone, clean out a very messy closet together. You’ll learn a lot about each other… J

I am beginning to see God’s purpose for me here. It’s easy to get caught up in my expectations, but I’m finally releasing my self to His will. God use me!

Prayer requests: pray that I can trust God with my purpose here. I trusted Him enough to quit my job and come to Africa, why can’t I trust Him now?! Pray for open hearts and minds for the teens that we are working with.

-Kristen

Sunday, February 6, 2011

the starting line

Sunset at Blouberg

Vissershok athletic day

Little Tabasa... SOS Kids

Farm Creche sweeties

We have officially started the projects… All this preparation has lead up to this week. We are still trying to find our perfect placement, and where we belong in the projects. I have definitely been restless and ready for the projects to begin. I think all of us have. But now all our waiting has paid off!

This week I went back to the farm and to SOS kids. I was very surprised to be doing nothing with teenagers. This week I spent mostly working with children, and I enjoyed it (surprisingly)! Working with youth back home, I figured I would be immediately placed in a setting working with teens, but humility struck, as I was placed with the younger age groups. I love the precious children at the farm crèche. We just come in the morning and brush the little one’s teeth, wash their faces and give them something to eat and drink. Then we do a little bible story with them. They only speak Afrikaans, so Trevor, one of the local volunteers, helps with the translation. We hang out and play for a little longer and then head out.

Later in the day, I went to the SOS Village. We tried to put on the kids program we planned for earlier in the day, but we didn’t get the building we usually have due to some kind of training (welcome to Africa). After trying to vie for the kid’s attention, we ended up playing outside with the kids for an hour or so. It was fun, but as they say here in South Africa, it was hectic!

Wednesday night we had a braai (bbq) at Rolf (the national director of YFC South Africa) & Lizzie Weichardt’s. All of the volunteers were finally here, and it was time to celebrate! I had the opportunity to lead worship for everyone, and Rolf gave us a good word. It was nice to just enjoy some time with everyone together: all the YFC staff, plus both houses, and all the new volunteers that had just arrived.

Thursday some of us went to help Vissershok with their athletics days. Vissershok is a school that is near the Dunoon Township and the farm. A lot of the kids we see at the farm go to this primary school. We arrived early in the morning to catch the bus to go with them to their event. We arrived and spread out to help with the different track events. It is literally a track & field meet for all the local schools. Kids as young as 5 were competing! I helped with the boy’s long jump, and I can safely say some of those boys have bright futures in the Olympics. Aside from the horrendous burn I got from sitting in the sun for 6 hours, it was a good day supporting our Vissershok kiddos.

Tired from a full week, I happened to glance out the window Thursday night to see the loveliest sunset… It reminded me of just how big and beautiful my God is. However exhausted I am, I know God is with me. He even wishes me sweet dreams by painting a gorgeous sky as the sun retreats behind the horizon. I mean, I’ve seen a lot of sunsets, but there was just something special about this one… it spoke to me: a message of rest and reassurance.

God is my refuge.

-Kristen